"Before the grace, there’s grunt – you have to put in the work."
Every now and then, I like to refer back to this quote by our one and
only Dena Kingsberg. This gives me a reminder that we don't go from 0 to
100% in a matter of days, or weeks, or even sometimes years (and
perhaps never). We have to work at it incessantly (abhyasa) we have to put in the effort
without attachments (vairagya ).
I have gone through, and am still going through, the grunt phase of eka pada sirsasana, dwi pada sirsasana , and yoga nidrasana . It's been more than 1.5 years since my first try of eka pada sirsasana , and now there are still days when I just absolutely dread the series of postures that requires me to put my legs behind the head.
And recently came the infamous karandavasana . I am doing more than my fair shares of grunts--grunting on the way down and grunting coming back up. I can't seem to either 1) drop my knees in towards my triceps without my knees free-falling down, or 2) prevent myself from falling face flat while trying to come up. And these are all with assistance. Come this asana, my bandhas just seem run the other way.